I didn't think of you today.
Not until the realization that I'd made it day.
I didn't think of the last time we spoke and how much of it was fiction.
I didn't think of you're lisp or the annoying way you say "yes."
I didn't think of the weight you've gained and how you defy your doctor's.
I didnt go over every conversation, every fight, every minute.
I didn't think of causing you immense paid.
I didn't dread having to share the same oxygen tomorrow.
today..i didn't think of you.
I smiled today.
I laughed.
I was flirted with.
I was propsitioned.
Today, someone called me gorgeous and it didn't feel false.
Today, someone invited me out and I didn't have to guilt him into it.
Today, someone complimented my outfit without instantly criticizing me.
Today, I got to be myself in a way I haven't since we met.
Today, that black ball of hatred that keeps you in my mind began to disapate.
A truly good day.
10:00 p.m. - Sunday, Apr. 28, 2013