OMG. I feel like I'm behind on life. Well, not exacly life but the projects I started when I graduated. I wanted to sit down in Novemeber and bust my ass writing a NaNo novel. Currently, I have a solid idea, a basic outline, and ohhh 4 paragraphs written.
I became a member of the Daring Bakers and am now 2 challenges behind. Honestly, I haven't been cooking or baking much at all. Not for fun, not the way I like it.
I think I've been too preoccupied with finances, sicknesses, and general laziness.
oh..and the whole finding a man I'm head over heels in love with. that too.
ha.
hit me like a ton of bricks I tell ya.
this boy walks into my life as nothing more than another person complimenting my tshirt collection.
and then we're looking at each other.
we can't help but talk to each other.
we started having more serious conversations and, of course, facebook helped us out. we went from getting to know each other to liking each other to going on what will go down as one of the best first dates I've ever had. From there, we were steam rolling a long. We held hands, then we kissed, then we got a little tiny bit dirty, just the way it should be.
the shocker for me was on the emotional end. it was i like you to you're amazing to i need you in a matter of days.
this one, feels like someone i have to be with. i don't have the "bad idea" feeling. I'm not afraid he'll hurt me or i'll hurt him.
i'm only afraid of this unfamilliar feeling:happiness.
utter and complete happiness.
its never been this good for me.
i have a boyfriend that i actually want to be with. i have a boyfriend that loves me for me. that compliments me daily, says good morning and good night without fail every day, that i can be sily with, that i can be dirty with, that i can be sweet with.
i love this. i love him. and that's the first time i've committed that to anything.
perhaps, i'll mention that to him at some point :)
today, is a lazy day. but it's one that'll include a moment of girlie grooming (plucking of these eyebrows) and a workout (20 minutes of "COME ON!") and perhaps a little crafty goodness.
at the end of the day each day, i am grateful for just about everything. i am a blessed person, i know that, i have for years. and if when i curl up to sleep i can smile, then it's all good.
12:58 p.m. - Sunday, Nov. 11, 2012