my goodness.
i remember when i was glued to this. or atleast a standard journal.
*sigh*
how is life dland?
this week has been a week of changes. work related.
just for me changes and they're basically all about my outlook on my day and how to spend my time, ya know.
i spent the better part of the last 3 years working my 8 hours plus workign through lunches and breaks. i'd come in early and work off the clock. i'd stay late and work off the clock.
and after the holy hell insanity the last oooo 3 months have been, i made a decision.
had an epiphany maybe?
i love my job. and the things that make me unhappy no lnger need to run that.
so i'm doing me. best as possible. happy and then some.
i am lovelvoeloving the brisk but not horribly snow filled winter we are having.
PLEASE LET IT STAY THIS WAY
atleast for alittle bit.
i'm too tired for stats thsi evening, ahhh yes, third times a charm i hope.
so! i thought for old times sake..a survey?
50 revvveeeeaaaallllliiinnnggg questions.
1. Ever cheated on someone? How many times?: no
2. How old were you when you lost your virginity? Or if you are a virgin, what age do you think you�ll lose it at?: 20
3. Are you �in love� with somebody? no, but a bit infatuated lately.
5. Have you ever done anything sexual on your parents bed?: oh yes
6. Ever been �the other person� in an affair?: more times than i care to admit
7. How many people do you have a crush on right now?: one
9. Ever had a one night stand?: yes
10. Ever gotten drunk and couldn�t remember the night?: i still have trouble remember the month after my 21st birthday
11. Ever been sexually harassed and/or assaulted?: nope
12. Ever had a crush on your neighbour?: nope
13. Ever snuck out of the house?: sure a few times
14. How many illegal drugs have you tried? oh good god. i have no idea. several.
15. Do you do any drug regularly?: nope
16. If you�re underage, do you still drink and/or smoke cigarettes?: i'm 29 and quit smoking 6 years ago, drink here and there
18. Ever attempted suicide?: nope
19. Ever been to therapy? What for?:nope.
20. Have you ever been so upset that you stopped eating?: absolutely
21. Are you clinically depressed? Are you taking anything for it?: nope.
23. How old were you when you first got kissed?:18
24. Is there any �friend� of yours that you secretly hate but talk to anyway?: nope
25. Ever been in a relationship and wanted to end it, but stuck with it for some reason?: sure have
26. Ever sent naked pictures to someone?: yep
27. What about sent them to someone you met over the internet?: yep
28. Ever been abused?:no
29. Did you ever run away? How long were you gone for and what happened?: for a minute when i was kid. nothing serious
30. Do you ever lie to yourself about things so much that you believe it?: have tried but never works out
31. Have you ever liked someone when you were dating someone else?: yes
32. Ever dated a friend�s ex?: no
33. Ever done something with your friend�s significant other?: hell no!
34. Did anyone ever confide in you about being gay/lesbian?: yes
36. Do you know of someone who has done a horrible crime but never got caught? yes
37. Ever stole a large sum of money?: no
38. Ever purposely threw up?: no
39. Ever had an eating disorder? What happened?: no
40. Did you or anyone you know have an abortion?: knew someone, yes
41. Were you or any of your siblings in an accident?: yes
42. Ever found porn on your parents� computer?: no, but my dad did run up his cell phone bill with porn. ha.
43. Do you look at porn?: have
44. How many people have seen you naked in person?: 25?
45. What about through pictures?: sameish
46. Ever had cyber/phone sex? yes
47. Ever got a piercing behind your parents� back?: most of em
48. Ever sold or bought an illegal substance?: no
49. What�s your #1 biggest fear?: can ferris wheels count?
50. Have you ever faced that fear? What happened?: ive been on them. i freak out. its baaaaaad.
well that was dull.
ahh wel.
and now. we sleep.
10:09 p.m. - Friday, Dec. 16, 2011