i need a drink
7:48 p.m. - Saturday, Oct. 03, 2009
i spend my weekends thinking about a man i can't have.
why?
he's taken over my everything.
and i can't even explain it.
but it drives me insane.
i'm setting myself up for disapointment. every day. but i can't say no and i can't stop.
it feels right. it feels like its time.
ive never been the relationship kind of girl..but i would be with him.
atleast in my head i would be.
*sigh*
this is sappy and ridiculous.
im not this kind of girl?
i havn't been in years.
the dampness has made me tired and my feet ache.
im watching Tivo.
sitting next to this weeks homework.
it was due thursday.
i'm below the requirement for attendence. i have no idea what that means for my grade. heres hoping i'll just lose some points and not get kicked out of the class.
what is up with me and school lately?
i cant focus on it at all.
i'm back to focusing and productive goodness at work.
im certainly over focused on my dls and all it's fun.
but i'm off on my workouts and homework.
actually anything at home is off.
i dont think im sick.
im in random fits of pain but that doesnt usually affect anything else.
but i sit here..hw written out in scribbles and outlines. but not posted.
it's not even enough to get me a great hw grade as it is and i'm gonna post it 2 days late.
not to mention..this weeks attendence is gonna be below the requierment too.
so recap..
im infatuated but not doing anything about it except pining away
im unfocused on things that mean a lot to me.
in pain.
tired.
and possibly failing a lit class i actually like.
no wonder i spent money on wine last night..
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