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dont ask dont tell it's been years since i felt like i had to work to get someone. Years! The last man to make me feel insecure about my standing in our situation was Cory and that was 4 years ago. And it made sense. He was so wishy washy and unstable it was difficult to feel good about any of it. If you cant tell, im feeling someone. Someone who shall remain nameless and who i refuse to go into detail about. Thing is i feel like he likes me. Like its quite possible hes feeling what im feeling. And at the same time i find myself more often than not wnating to feel wanted by him. Wanting him to show it. Its odd. To suddenly feel like i need to chase what usually comes to me. Its strange for me anyway b/c i havnt been this confused, this lost, this caught up..in a very long time. Not only do i find myself feeling he's in this too, but i have that overwhelming feeling that this is right. That its good. That i have to get through it. Someones trying to teach me something and it isnt the obvious lesson i learned long ago. Fuck. Back to work.
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