eh..thats how my days are going
8:04 p.m. - Thursday, Mar. 12, 2009
something tells me i'm not gonna get my homework done this evening.
it isn't due until tommorrow night? maybe sunday. either way I still have tommorrow to get it all done.
i havnt done the class stuff yet, the acutal participating because i'm only half understanding the new stuff so far.
maybe i'll attempt to answer one of those.
then thats something today.
i'm just a lil distracted with loking through paintings. daily candy linked me here ((I love the Nan Britton and Marilyn ones)) and now i'm browsing.
intersting.
its like my art gallery fix. i've been wanting to go. just havn't lately.
i'm ready for warmer weather.
i think thats where this funk is coming from.
im not depressed by any means but everything is getting to me and i'm irritible. im tired constantly.
im bored and withdrawn.
im in a funk.
today was kinda of awful.
im so over the comments about me asking questions. how the fuck else am i gonna learn all the cs stuff.
i wasn't in cs before this. i have no idea what we can and cant do. so i ask. and because my partnerincrime (or p.i.c.) has always been open to letting me know what were supposed to do and kind of took on the teacher role, i ask him.
now he's joking when he makes his comments but i honestly think its annoying him that i go to him when i have something to ask.
so i'm over it.
i spent yesterday avoiding him. today it was in between. i did nt go to him unless i needed to. i did opt to go and ask rather than email b/c i jus tneeded to stand up.
and still i got razzed about it.
im going back to avoiding.
part of me would like to avoid my entire department.
i feel very outside. they have a differnt comraderie.
it's odd to still get that left out feeling at 26.
i thought id be over it by now.
and being bothered by any of it makes me feel childish.
hence my thought that im in a funk.
im so tired..
im determined to get a few things online related done then shut the computer down and focus on math. even if its just for 15 mins.
i want to get in bed to sleep by 9:30.
9 would be even better.
maybe at 9 ill do crunches and then get in bed.
that'll give me atleast some resemblence of a workout ((chinese for dinner)) and still get me in bed at a decent time.
so very glad tommorrow is friday
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